I used to have a teacher who always said that the pen is a tool of the devil, because it doesn’t forgive your mistakes. If that is so, I guess tattoos are his preferred instrument of choice since it is so permanent. And yet, I want one.
I find the commitment to something that permanent and irreversible a beautiful and much too rare act.
In spite of what my teacher said, it’s almost as if it’s a metaphor for God’s love. No matter what, it is always there and you cannot get away from it no matter what you do or what you believe.
Some might say that I’m stretching the deeper meaning of tattoos a bit, but I do believe that that is how God’s love works and tattoos, at least to me, serve a purpose of illustrating that.
With that being said, I’m super scared of getting one. Because after all, what if I do regret it? Or what if it doesn’t turn out the way I pictured it? So to this day all I have been doing is finding inspiration for the day I decide to muster enough courage to actually go through with it.
I have to admit it – I really love lipsticks, but I almost never, ever wear them. Only when going out or on the rare occasion that I feel especially brave with my outfit do I finish it up with a lip colour. The reason? No one else wears them. I know it’s silly, but it’s the truth.
Maybe that’s why it made me so happy, when I found the perfect lip colour for summer!
It has the perfect amount of pigmentation so that it doesn’t look overdone, but still rounds up the entire look, and takes it to the next level.
It’s from the limited edition collection at MAC in the colour “Pure vanity”.
A few months ago I stumbled upon this little orange bottle. It claimed to reduce stretch marks and scars among a list of other things. I scanned my body in my head and thought “yup, have that – need this bottle.” I was a skeptical, so I did my research online and found a billion (okay, that might be an exaggeration) of testimonies of how this little wonder had worked miracles. I thought I’d give it a try, so I ran to the store and obtained it for about $15. I wasn’t exactly excited about handing over my card to the lady at the check-out counter, but I was too curious so I gave in. The instructions say to rub it on your marks or scars morning and night for three months and then you will see the change. Three months is quite a while, but to me that made it seem more credible – they weren’t over-selling themselves.
I started my treatment and every morning and every night I would rub this oil on me. I actually loved doing i. I felt like I was doing my body a favor. And the smell!! Being full of essential oils, I felt like I was at a spa every single day. Perfect!
Good scents and a luxury feel isn’t enough to count for success though. Did it work?
I don’t know if I qualify to say, cause I actually stopped using it before the three months had passed. I may have used it for a month and a half or so, looking to see if I could find improvements every single time.
What I found was no improvement, but a greater awareness of my imperfections. When I first started out, I only had a few spots that I would use it on, but a month and a half in, I had found so many little things that were wrong with my skin, that I started wondering why I had never noticed this before. That’s when I realized, that I had never noticed, because I had never cared. I had never seen the imperfections because I was completely fine with them being there. I had never worried about it before to the extend that I did now. That’s when I decided to stop using this oil regularly. Not because it did something bad to my body, but because I started loving my body less for every time I used it. I decided that this was definitely not worth it – and I didn’t actually see any improvements from the use whatsoever. As another blogger said (forgive me for having forgotten who) – this is basically just scented baby oil.
What’s most important to me isn’t if I look great, but if I feel great. So if anything that I do will make me feel worse about myself and my body, I will stop doing it. Having a bad self-image is not a price I want to pay to look perfect. I challenge you to do the same.
Have you tried this oil? What are your thoughts and experiences with it? Let me know in the comments.
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I used to have really short hair – shorter than some guys actually – but decided to grow it out a few years ago. Yes, a few years… That’s how long it has taken me to get my hair to the length it has now, so you could imagine that it was pretty short. I’ll show you a picture of that some other day. I loved the pixie cut and how it gave an edge to most outfits, but what made me decide to grow it out in the end was the lack of different styling options. There is really only so much you can do with short hair. For that reason, I really love to play around with different stylings of my now, in my own opinion, really long, thick hair. That doesn’t mean I’m good at it though, so when my good friend, Trevor, asked me if he could curl it, I didn’t hesitate in my response. He has that magic touch with hair and it just always turns out amazing.
Being a warm and sunny day in Northern California, a few friends and I spent the day having a picnic at the most beautiful lookout I have ever seen. If you ever come to Redding, you should do yourself the favor and go to The Bluffs.
It also gave me a chance to finally wear my new skirt that I bought especially for this trip.
Shirt: Selected Femme // Skirt: Minimum, $50 // Watch: Asos $36 // Necklace: Pilgrim // Lipstick: Fanfare, MAC $16
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I’ve always boasted about the fact that my hair had never been dyed, but today that changed. My great friend Trevor Boyd put long wanted highlights in it and he did an amazing job! Here are the results.
The sun is out and I need to feel like spring is on it’s way even though it’s cold outside. Solution: Pink lipstick.
I paired the MAC Pink Treat liner on the entire lip with MAC Fanfare lipstick.
Also, I feel in love with this outfit. It is so simple and all black, but the cut of the turtleneck and the semi-shine pants made my day.
Turtleneck: Vila // Pants: 2nd day // Lipstick: MAC, Fanfare // Lippencil: Pink Treat
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I treated myself to a new nail polish yesterday. I am completely in love with it. I’ve always been intimidated by the dark colors, but I decided that I had to try it. And boy, do I love it. I got “Under the Twilight” by ESSIE, a deep dark purple – almost black, but not as harsh. It makes me so happy every time I look at my nails. Here’s the look: